Face Lift & Change of Heart

It's been a LONG time since my last post but need I remind you that homework does indeed blow. Since school started for my little lovelies something had to give; which for a mother it usually means her livelihood a.k.a. my Big Mama blog! School's been in session for awhile now and we were blessed with a 2 1/2 week break right as momentum started to build so guess who got the wind knocked out of her sails?! This girl.

Seriously there's so much pressure...homework, volunteering, snack backpack, homemade lunches, buying this or that, PTO, donating this or that, signing the 85 papers sent home and returning them on time, reading, spelling words, ugh! Oh yes, that doesn't even touch the ironed clothes, teeth brushed, hair looking decent, small animals or objects removed from backpacks on a daily basis, a healthy breakfast - shoot, and I almost forgot to mention my full-time j-o-b...call me whatever you want to but I. Am. Over. It. I have a complete sentence for all of it: No. Major props to teachers and to those parents who actually TRULY love doing all of it while bringing home the bacon as well. They're out there - I've seen them; most of the time I just choose to ignore them as I need no other reason to feel bad about myself. Unfortunately saying no or having the "no" attitude is not realistic so the kiddos and I just keep taking it day by day along with the rest of the gen pop.

{86 got a face lift}

Luckily but sadly there's not much to catch anyone up to speed on. I think I've tried at least 3 more fad diets since we chatted in August; the good news being I lost a total of 12 lbs! There was some woo hoo'ing going on around these parts - until I of course gained it back and then some. Just packing on my winter coat, you know because they are so necessary here in Arizona with highs of 92 at the end of flippin' October. Ah...the life of a desert rat.  

Part of the other reason I stopped posting was due to feeling like I shouldn't share the intimate details of my struggles. More importantly thinking...who the hell cares and why do I think it's a good idea to air my dirty laundry? People criticize & judge me {all of us} without giving them full insight to my/our weaknesses. [insert shout out to Chaz Bono - homeboy didn't need to "grow" a pair to act like he had them~you'll always be a ballroom dancer in my eyes buddy] I found myself in complete denial about what I would share and what I wouldn't; which was DUMB because at the end of the day who really cares?! It's a damn blog and just because Bethenny (or her security detail) didn't hop on the 86 Big Mama train doesn't mean I should stop. Seriously though Bethenny - heart was broken when you didn't take me up on my dinner offer. At any rate, I've decided I'm just going to say what I have to say and share what I want to share; whenever & wherever. Warning: I have no filter.

Note to self: 
Always wear make-up to the grocery store just in case you do run into 1 of 3 86 Big Mama friends. Sorry about that Katie & thank you for the encouragement to keep on 86'ing :)