Countdown is on

I'm not feeling it today. I've been in grumpy town for oh..let's say the last couple of days. I need to change my attitude because I truly don't have much to be frowny about. I wonder if I'm going through withdrawals...shoot. JK. I'm starting to get frustrated; although I haven't been in the gym everyday working my ass I have been VERY conscious about my food intake. I know it hasn't been that long but I need to see some progress here pretty shortly or...the body I deserve is not going to be worthy of this gal. I'm not expecting to drop a size or even be able to physically tell in the mirror, I just want to go to Vegas next weekend not feeling like I should have walked the entire way rather than flown.

I almost didn't go camping a few weeks ago because I was worried about what I was going to wear. True story. There's nothing worse than being in a situation where you should be happy and carefree and all you do is worry about your frumpiness. I'd at least like to drop a month on my pregnancy scale...instead of looking 5 months prego I'll take looking 4. I'm easy to please. 

{image via Frederick's}

This time around Vegas is not going to be a complete shit show so I do and will care about my appearance. I'm going with the bf and we have sophisticated plans in the evening i.e. fancy dinners and theatrical shows. I must be on my best behavior which is easy to do with him because I look up to him in the maturity department - he is, I'm not. That being said my focus will be on dressing up to look oh so pretty and not oh so fatty patty. Not to mention we have a pool day planned...not sure if anyone has ever been witness to or sober enough to care about the babes around the pools in Vegas but if you're obsessed with the way you look in a swimsuit like me then you'll understand the feeling I have of shear horror when I think about it. I want to relax and not care; not dwell and compare. The key is I don't want to have to get my drink on to do so. 

Today's Fix:

Running around like a mad woman to deliver orders to my clients but then I AM hitting the gym. I have a birthday party to attend tonight and I'm not allowing myself 1 alcohol beverage unless I go to the gym. It's time the rules apply to me. I'm also going to try to instigate some laughter. For sure.

Yesterday's Scorecard:

I literally sat in the same place for about 8 hours working before I took the trio out for a bit to swim. All work and no play makes Rikki a dull girl.